Most women who've had at least one child know, when you're pregnant, ya tend to have some strange dreams. I don't know about you, but my dreams can kind of freak me out as is, let alone when I'm pregnant!! You know...ya never know what they really mean. They're so cryptic. Then there's the "maybe it's your subconscious trying to tell you something...." stance. I don't need that in my life! I am pretty in-tune with my body as is. I don't need another "thing" trying to tell me stuff. Just send me a text!!
At the end of this week, will mark our 5th month, and in the past 5 months, I've had some weird dreams. None that i can recall now however. Though I'm trying just for the purpose of this post. But alas. To no avail. But that brings us to last night.
Most of the time i can't remember my dreams. I'll remember them for a few moments after i wake up. But then they're gone. Poof!! Or I'll remember bits and pieces, but not enough to actually get to piece all together to remember what the dream was. Last night i woke up around 2:30 or so...maybe it was later. But the dream i had was WEIRD!!
I dreamt that my muscles in my belly had ripped open, but that tear didn't open my outside belly. So i wasn't bleeding. It was from my first c-section and instead of a horizontal cut, he cut me vertically on the inside (they used to do that) and that inside cut had ripped open, unbeknownst to me. Well the baby thought it was time to go and she was trying to get out. As if she's in a cage or something? And i looked down and her tiny arm and chubby little leg were sticking out of my belly button!! AHHH!!! I kept trying to keep my hand over her little limbs so i wouldn't freak Brooks out, but i knew he was going to see that and panic. I just needed to push her back in. But i didn't know how she was situated, so i felt like i needed to go to the doc for help. She could just go down my throat and pull her back inside, stitch me up and no one would be the wiser. (WHAT?!) Because sure...that's how the human body works. But Brooks, because he loves to rub my baby bump, found her limbs sticking out. I had put lotion on my belly, but was misting her with a water bottle to keep her moist. (HU?!) Brooks was surprisingly calm. At this point in the dream, i knew it was a dream, as Brooks would NOT be calm if our daughter was poking out of my tummy!! But i was freaking out!! He was just sitting in his recliner, with his phone in his hand, starring at me like i had lost my mind. I kept touching her little foot and then hysterically said, "But if she's born before 24 weeks, she'll die!!! What should we do?!" I can tell you...don't just sit there misting her with a water bottle!! That's when i woke up.
Umm...HELLO?! There's SO much wrong with this that i just can't even! That's it. I just can't even. To date, i think this has to be the weirdest dream I've had so far!!
Of course the "maybe it's your subconscious..." has kicked in and now I'm wondering why i had such a messed up dream, one that i REALLY hope NOT to repeat. Personally, i just think it's just from my round ligament pain I've been dealing with for the last 3 months. That makes the most sense. And perhaps it has something to do with the fact that we aren't sure how my first doc did the c-section 17 years ago because the office and hospital back home tossed out my medical records. I do know I shouldn't worry too much about it. It's a dream. Nothing more. Baby is A-OK though, and is moving around this morning. Maybe last night she was kicking my belly button and that helped induce the dream? The night before i do remember i had my hand on my belly and felt her moving around (of course in my sleep, so i don't really remember) and had some strange dream about her being in an alien ship in there...sooo....yea.
At least I'll have something funny to tell my doc tomorrow instead of asking a million panicked questions! :)
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